I am really struggling at the moment.
The pain is unrelenting. I did something to a tendon in my foot which was agonising, and I couldn’t walk for days. It took ages to heal, and the instant it did I pulled a muscle in my chest/shoulder. I couldn’t breathe without terrible pain, and if I moved it was crippling.
It finally healed, and my lower back started. My lower back always hurts – it hasn’t stopped since I was fifteen. This is worse, so much worse.
I am also completely, and utterly exhausted. Bone-deep fatigue. My eyes are closing against my will, and I can’t summon the energy to do anything. I’ve been going to bed around 7-8pm and sleeping through until late morning, and struggling to get out of bed.
I am currently at work, trying to cling on, too scared to take sickness as I’ve already had one sick day since I’ve been here, and three days annual leave.
Please let this day end.